It's been a while

Ok, so this is going to be a downbeat posting, but it's real and it happened, and I feel like I need to get it out here before I post anything else.


In February, we had a miscarriage.


It was awful. Having hardly had chance to get used to being pregnant, at about 10 weeks in we lost the baby. I don't think we'd realised how much had grown attached to this invisible person until we lost her (all babies start out female). This was hot on the tails of our dear friend Bev back in England dying of Cancer.

The friends we have made here and people in England proved to be of tremendous support. We didn't have to cook for a whole week, with friends from church dropping off meals and offering practical help. We took plenty of time out to mourn. I found I was trying to walk a line between letting it all out, but not wallowing in self pity. Now, we are getting on with life, learning to live with this very sad time. We are ok.

There. This blog isn't usually this miserable, but I didn't want to pretend this didn't happpen, and now I've got it off my chest I think I'll find it easier to write more.